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I decided to become a Muslim but then I met Jesus
« on: August 02, 2011, 05:05:46 AM »
Hi, I joined this forum mainly because I have read a number of Ellis Skolfield's writings, and thought I may like to discuss some things at some time in the future. I now feel compelled to write an intro, and some of my personal story. If you are a Muslim, please please take the time to read my story. I am a real person, and this is what really happened to me. I may have to write it in a couple of parts, so here is the start anyway.

About two and a half years ago I decided it was time for me to seek God, in order to get direction in my life and to make sure I was doing the "right" thing - particularly in regards to a very difficult marriage. I am not of Jewish descent, therefore as far as I could tell there were only two religions that could help me find "God" - either Christianity or Islam. For a long time I thought that it did not matter which, so long as I sought to please "God" - after all, I thought, Allah is just the Arabic word for God, right?

The (very few) people that I knew that claimed to be Christian did not seem to me to be very holy. Instead I looked around me at the fast increasing numbers of Muslim students at the university where I was studying (I live in New Zealand). The females almost always dressed modestly and seemed very reverent of their God Allah - always observing their washing/prayer rituals, going to great pains to be modest, and never "flirting" (or even associating) with men, other than their own husbands. This was in stark contrast to most of the "Western" females about me - often dressed half naked, getting drunk every weekend, and many involved in regular casual sex as a form of entertainment - it seemed marriage or God was the last thing on their minds. Well, I decided these Muslims must be onto something. It seemed the religion of Christianity had pretty much failed us.

So I started to find out about Islam - I read books written by Muslims about both Islam and Christianity, bought an English Quran, read Muslim testimonies etc. on the internet. These books told me that Christians worship three Gods instead of one and that they believe Jesus is the Son of God, and that of course God can't have a son. They said it was blasphemy to worship a man (Jesus) instead of God. Everything I read said that Muslims "greatly respect" Jesus. I read testimonies by Muslim women saying how wearing a burqa or hijab and body covering clothing meant they were free from vanity, free from the pressures to look good and wear the right clothing, etc. etc. This all sounded pretty good to me. I started buying halal meat and became pretty much obsessed about wearing clothing to cover my entire body, not showing my arms or anything. I actually ended up very sick and depressed with Vitamin D deficiency, as my skin did not see the sun for over a year.  (I wonder how many Muslim women actually have this deficiency - skin contact with the sun is an essential part of life.)

I agreed that worshipping Jesus seemed wrong, or at least unecessary. The idea of Jesus "dying on the cross to save us from our sins" is something that I had just never been able to understand. So I had pretty much decided Islam must be right and good.

Then one night in my sleep I received a vision. I say a 'vision' because it was just that. One image incredibly vivid and real - more real than any dream I had ever had. I am sure I will remember it forever, it feels as real now as it did then. In the vision it was as if I was looking in the mirror - I was looking at my own face,  but also looking out. I was wearing a black hijab - an Arab style one - very strict and covering as much as it could. Where my eyes should be were just deep dark sockets. My face was gaunt - almost just the skeleton but there was some sickly grey flesh still on the bones. Everything about me felt dry, parched. Where my heart should be I could feel nothing at all, just an awful feeling of nothingness, a huge void where there should be feelings - where my soul should be. My body was there, but it felt ancient, parched and cold. I had no soul. I was alive, but DEAD. I woke up after this vision and felt an awful kind of terror about what I had just experienced.

... will finish this soon  :)
Anna
« Last Edit: August 03, 2011, 09:41:36 AM by Peter »

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Re: I decided to become a Muslim but then I met Jesus
« Reply #1 on: August 02, 2011, 06:20:11 AM »
Thank you for your valuable contribution, and a hearty welcome to the forum! :)

I wonder if you could title your post, so that when folks Google why they should pursue Islam or Christianity, they might be guided to your forum thread a little easier. Something like "Why I became a Muslim and then became a Christian" or "...and then found Jesus Christ" or "...and then Jesus found me" or "....a Muslim before Jesus came to me" or something like that? You may not be able to edit it, but as admin I can edit it for you. Just let me know what you decide on, IF you choose to decide on something different.

Once again, thank you so much, and welcome to the forum!

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Re: I decided to become a Muslim but then I met Jesus
« Reply #2 on: August 02, 2011, 08:26:26 AM »
Hi Anna,

First welcome to the forum. Second, wow. Amazing testimony. I can't wait to hear the rest. When you are finished I will share 1 of my own. It is something I don't share with many people because it is intimate and personal but it seems you have experienced something similar and would likely be blessed by it.

God bless and welcome again.
« Last Edit: August 03, 2011, 09:43:35 AM by Peter »
Doth that man love his Lord who would be willing to see Jesus wearing a crown of thorns, while for himself he craves a chaplet of laurel? Shall Jesus ascend to his throne by the cross, and do we expect to be carried there on the shoulders of applauding crowds? Charles H. Spurgeon

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Re: I decided to become a Muslim but then I met Jesus
« Reply #3 on: August 03, 2011, 06:53:56 AM »
Thanks for the welcome. How about we call it "I decided to become a Muslim but then I met Jesus"? Actually, I hadn't yet said anything about Jesus at all  ;)

Please, if you are viewing this and are Muslim (or considering Islam), I ask you from my heart to put some time aside to read what I have to say (in its entirety :)) I am writing, not out of any desire to talk about myself, but out of deep concern for you. Please, please do not be put off by the word "Jesus", please just read till the end.

(I will add the rest of what I feel I must say very soon)

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Re: I decided to become a Muslim but then I met Jesus
« Reply #4 on: August 03, 2011, 09:42:45 AM »
Thanks for the welcome. How about we call it "I decided to become a Muslim but then I met Jesus"?

Done and thank you. I'm really looking forward to more.

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Re: I decided to become a Muslim but then I met Jesus
« Reply #5 on: August 04, 2011, 07:19:04 AM »
.... okay, here is the second part :) ..... (there's going to have to be a third part too sorry!)

Although this vision/dream had been very real and very frightening, I was not entirely sure what to make of it. I had some idea that it had been a warning from God - that He (whoever he was) was warning me against Islam - that to be a Muslim meant death (spiritual death). I thought that I quite likely had just seen myself in "hell".


However, I also came up with alternative explanations - maybe it had been "just a dream", or maybe I was a bit crazy! Or, maybe God was telling me I should be a Muslim and I had just imagined the "death" part about it. The country/culture/society that I live in is, for the most part, a godless one. I certainly had never heard anyone say that God had given them a dream! If it had been a warning from God, that God still felt very distant to me, and I couldn't imagine that he would actually be bothered to give me a vision.


I spent the next few months very, very confused, still searching for the truth. I read books and searched the internet for information about Christianity vs Islam. You know what, the sheer volume of information out there is exhausting, and confusing! How on earth can I really know what happened thousands of years ago? How can I discern truth from fiction when everyone seems to think that they are right?


Even if Islam was not the truth, I just could not understand the Jesus stuff. Why did I need Jesus - couldn't I just deal directly with God - I mean, wouldn't it be better to talk to God than some man that has been dead 2000 years? Also, I tried and tried to read various parts of the Bible, but it was huge, complicated and I just did not understand what I read.


There were a few things I found in my "research" that did stand out to me, and eventually helped with my understanding. I won't put them here, but I might write a separate post later with a few key ideas in case it may help someone else.


Anyhow, basically I had come to the end of the road, I was still confused, and couldn't bear any more "research". It all came down to this "Jesus" idea. I read in the Bible where it says that whoever believes in Him (as in believes Jesus is God who came in the flesh, died, resurrected, went to heaven and will return soon to end the world) shall have everlasting life - basically it was just saying to believe, nothing else. Up until this point I had resisted believing this as I had been trying so hard to prove it first - you know, in a scholarly, logical, scientific kind of way. I did not understand how Jesus dying on a cross could "save us" from our sins. But by now I was pretty sure I would never prove anything no matter how much research I did - I would probably just drive myself crazy!


So I thought to myself "what have I got to lose?". I decided that I would believe the Bible - every word of it - including everything about Jesus' death and resurrection. I did not understand it, but I would just believe it, and see what happened. I must say here that when I decided to believe, I was very sincere. I was fully prepared to accept the consequences of believing in Jesus, and would change my actions and beliefs according how the Bible instructed. If this God of the Bible was the real God, he wasn't going to be fooled by me "testing" him. So, unsure as I was, I went into it with an earnest heart.


 :) okay, this seems a good place to stop and I will put the final part of this "story" in very soon ........

Anna
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Re: I decided to become a Muslim but then I met Jesus
« Reply #6 on: August 07, 2011, 05:28:58 AM »
A couple of days after I decided to believe in Jesus, I was outside my house at night. I looked up at the stars for a while, and all of a sudden I experienced this "out of body" sensation. I felt as if I was rising higher and higher upwards. Now, my body was not lifting off the ground, but it felt so real that I had to look down at my feet to check that they were still on the ground! Up until then I had never really been aware of the distinction between body and soul, but as I was experiencing this, I knew that what I could feel was my soul leaving my body and racing up towards, well - the heavens :) This lasted for about half a minute to one minute and it really was an amazing, supernatural experience. I believe that Jesus was confirming to me that I was now on the right track.


I spent many late nights trying to find out about Jesus through the Bible, books etc. One thing I did was search youtube. I watched quite a few videos that different Christians had uploaded of themselves, speaking about Jesus. I also read the comments to see what the other Christians were saying. What I realised is there are people out there in the world that genuinely feel they know Jesus, that they have a personal relationship with Him! Some of them really seemed to be in love with Jesus! To be honest I found this quite strange and shocking, but these people seemed so genuine that I believed them. There were also people talking about various dreams that they said Jesus had given them, and the interpretations. I even watched videos from one particular guy who spoke not only about various dreams that he believed were from Jesus, but he claimed that Jesus had appeared to him when he was awake - twice! He seemed so sincere and humble that I could not help but believe him. I mean, if Jesus is God, then He can do anything at all right? Why wouldn't he appear to people if He wanted?


I felt very strongly that I would like this personal relationship with Jesus too - I wanted to know Him - really know what he was like. So I spent alot of time talking to Him, praying, asking Him questions, repenting for my sins, telling Him how truly almighty and wonderful He really was, also just chatting away about things that were happening in my day. I spent whole days just talking to Him as I went about my day, and sometimes I fasted aswell. I kept asking Jesus if I could meet Him - see Him, hear from Him, get to know what He was really like.


Well what followed was that over the next few months Jesus did speak to me through quite a number of dreams. At first I was doubtful and kept asking and wondering if it really was Him - then He gave me a dream confirming that of course it was Him. In one of my dreams, God spoke to me and told me that me that in two months time everything would be taken from me and I would be tested. He showed me the utter despair and loss that I would feel. I was sceptical, but then it came true exactly as He had showed me it would. One time an angel spoke to me. During the time of these dreams, I was sometimes attacked by demons - either in my sleep or as I was going to sleep. They said or showed me things intended to simply frighten me. I was no longer on their side so I was now their enemy.


I do have a book at home where I have written down the details of these dreams, but I won't put them here. However, during this time I had two more significant experiences which I would like to write here, in the hope that someone reading may come to understand just how alive and personal Jesus really is.


One evening I was sitting alone at my sewing machine in the living room (my children were fast asleep in bed upstairs). I wasn't actually sewing, just sitting there still, feeling quite content. I felt a strong sense of peace come over me, and then I felt something enter the room - you know when you can sense a presence without having to see the person? Well it was like that. I was sitting at the front left corner of the room, so the majority of the living room space was behind and to the right side of my right shoulder. This is where I could feel the presence coming. My heart started pounding as no door had been opened - I felt half terrified as I knew something supernatural was there (what else could it be) and I had no idea whether it was good or bad.


You know how smoke will flow through a small gap until it has filled the space it is entering, and then just sort of hang there? Well that is exactly what this felt like, except I was sensing it, but not seeing, smelling or hearing it. Now just because it was something supernatural does not mean it was a weak presence - on the contrary it was a strong, unmistakable presence. Somehow I could sense the movement of it as it entered.


Once it had entered the room, the feel of it changed; it became still, and much stronger. It is very hard for me to describe exactly what it felt like, but the presence was huge. I feel like I should say "deafening" or "booming" - though it was completely silent. It also felt "warm", (though not in temperature). I somehow knew then that this was nothing to be afraid of. I knew that this was from Jesus.


After a while this presence began to "communicate" with me. I say communicate because I could now feel emotion from it. That emotion was love. This "thing" - it loved me. I know that may sound crazy or unbelievable but it is the absolute truth. I felt this incredible amount of love coming from it. I have always thought of love as some kind of sentimental, uncontrollable, vague emotion, but this love was real. It was as if it was another element like water, fire etc. - it was powerful. I could barely breathe! I knew now that it was Jesus himself (or I guess you could say a manifestation of Him). He had come to meet me! What we humans think of as love between people - it is really just a pale reflection of the awesome love that Jesus has for us. He is love!


Now, as I said His presence was to the side and back of me. I had turned towards it ever so slightly, but I could not turn right around to look. It was just too terrifying. If I had seen anything, I do not think I could have coped at all, it would have been just too much. However I knew in my heart that there would be nothing to see anyway as that was the whole point - Jesus was showing me I did not need to see anything to know that He was there!


I also began to feel something else - somehow I just knew that He knew everything about me - He was seeing into my soul and my heart. It was as if He was telling me that nothing escaped Him, He had watched me every second of my life; but you know what, for some reason He still loved me. I know it may be hard to understand the manner in which this was communicated to me, but I just knew. Funnily enough, this made me feel incredibly shy, bashful.


Now, you know what happened next? It is quite hard for me to write this, but I fell in love with Him. I mean literally, right there and then. I didn't think about it, it just happened. One minute I was sitting there experiencing this most almighty love being sent towards me, and next thing I was basically returning it. I felt myself literally fall in love with Him over the space of a few seconds. And I do mean in the same way that a person feels they fall in love with another person, only this was much stronger and it was complete. Shortly after this His presence gradually left the room.


Since then I have experienced Jesus' presence outside my body in other more subtle ways. I have also felt His presence inside of me - I am not a Bible scholar and may be wrong about this but I think that this is what is meant by the "Holy Spirit". I am also learning to hear His "voice". This does not have to be an audible voice; sometimes it is a thought or image placed in your mind, sometimes it is just knowing in your heart. I am learning to see the hand of Jesus involved in every aspect of my life - the more I trust in Him the more He is able to guide every single step of my life.


Also, recently, satan has been speaking to me, sometimes in dreams and sometimes when I am awake. He curses at me, mocks me and tries to scare me. Can you understand what I am saying - satan hates me, because I know the truth, and he hates the truth - he does not want me to share it with you.


One more thing - my Muslim friends, if you have read or know that the real name for Jesus is Yahushua (or Yeshua etc..), well I am certain that Jesus revealed and confirmed to me in a very precise manner that it is his true name - and that He prefers it. I might write a little bit about what happened in a separate post. I'm not sure if this name matters much for Christians, and I was confused as to why He particularly revealed this to me, but I think I am starting to realise that it does matter for Muslims. I have written "Jesus" throughout this testimony because I didn't want to confuse anyone, but in private I too call Him Yahushua. If you have difficulty with the name Jesus, or with the idea of Jesus and Yaweh being the same God yet separate - then use Yahushua - "Yahweh saves".


My friends, I have written this in absolute honesty and from my heart, for the simple reason that I want to show you that Jesus (Yahushua) is real, he is alive. I know Him - I have met Him! He is so very, very close to us and has an almighty love for us all. There are many other people in the world that will also testify that Jesus/Yahushua is their living God, and that they have a personal relationship with Him, just like me. Can you find even one Muslim that claims a similar relationship with either Allah or Muhammad? One Muslim that will tell you that they are "in love" with Muhammad - or that Muhammad speaks to them, or that they "know" him? Will you admit to yourself that there is a chance that I am really telling you the truth - that Yahushua is our living God? If that is true, then it means Muhammad and all Muslims have been greatly, sorely and sadly deceived by satan. You owe it to yourself to find out the truth - it is a matter of eternal life or death.


My friends, there is a simple way to find out the truth of Yahushua. You need to believe. It really is as simple as that, because faith is everything. If you give your heart to Yahushua and believe that He and He alone can save you, then He will come through for you, I promise you. He will bless you like you never imagined. Our God is not of this earth, He is a spiritual God. Why don't you seek Him in a spiritual way? Get down on your knees and cry out to Yahushua from your heart and soul, cry out like you are drowning. Ask Yahushua to reveal Himself to you, beg Him. Keep asking until He does - He is truly your Saviour and has almighty power. He can do anything and He will reveal Himself to you! He is right there with you, waiting for you to open your heart to receive Him, do you understand?


Please do not hesitate to make a reply, or to message me if you have anything that you want to ask privately. Do not be afraid of the truth!


Oh and this is the end of my testimony  :)
May Yahweh bless you.

Anna





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Re: I decided to become a Muslim but then I met Jesus
« Reply #7 on: August 07, 2011, 06:18:32 AM »
Thank you for you testimony Anna.

Also, recently, satan has been speaking to me, sometimes in dreams and sometimes when I am awake. He curses at me, mocks me and tries to scare me. Can you understand what I am saying - satan hates me, because I know the truth, and he hates the truth - he does not want me to share it with you.

Some months after I was born again in 2003, I suddenly realized that my thoughts had somehow gradually become increasingly unregenerate, and my habits too. It happened subtly over a few months without my even realizing it. All at once I realized it was Satan doing what he could to cart off Jesus' goods. I felt desperate. I didn't know what to do. Then it struck me to shout right out loud, "Satan, I can't wait to see Jesus cast you into the lake of fire!", and I felt an immediate release, and have not had difficulty from that moment ever since.


One more thing - my Muslim friends, if you have read or know that the real name for Jesus is Yahushua (or Yeshua etc..), well I am certain that Jesus revealed and confirmed to me in a very precise manner that it is his true name - and that He prefers it. I might write a little bit about what happened in a separate post. I'm not sure if this name matters much for Christians, and I was confused as to why He particularly revealed this to me, but I think I am starting to realise that it does matter for Muslims. I have written "Jesus" throughout this testimony because I didn't want to confuse anyone, but in private I too call Him Yahushua. If you have difficulty with the name Jesus, or with the idea of Jesus and Yaweh being the same God yet separate - then use Yahushua - "Yahweh saves".

More on this subject for forum read-only participants
http://islamchristianforum.com/index.php?topic=2640.0
http://islamchristianforum.com/index.php?topic=1728.0

My friends, I have written this in absolute honesty and from my heart, for the simple reason that I want to show you that Jesus (Yahushua) is real, he is alive. I know Him - I have met Him! He is so very, very close to us and has an almighty love for us all. There are many other people in the world that will also testify that Jesus/Yahushua is their living God, and that they have a personal relationship with Him, just like me. Can you find even one Muslim that claims a similar relationship with either Allah or Muhammad? One Muslim that will tell you that they are "in love" with Muhammad - or that Muhammad speaks to them, or that they "know" him? Will you admit to yourself that there is a chance that I am really telling you the truth - that Yahushua is our living God? If that is true, then it means Muhammad and all Muslims have been greatly, sorely and sadly deceived by satan. You owe it to yourself to find out the truth - it is a matter of eternal life or death.


My friends, there is a simple way to find out the truth of Yahushua. You need to believe. It really is as simple as that, because faith is everything. If you give your heart to Yahushua and believe that He and He alone can save you, then He will come through for you, I promise you. He will bless you like you never imagined. Our God is not of this earth, He is a spiritual God. Why don't you seek Him in a spiritual way? Get down on your knees and cry out to Yahushua from your heart and soul, cry out like you are drowning. Ask Yahushua to reveal Himself to you, beg Him. Keep asking until He does - He is truly your Saviour and has almighty power. He can do anything and He will reveal Himself to you! He is right there with you, waiting for you to open your heart to receive Him, do you understand?

Matthew 7:7 Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: 8 For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.

Mic 6:8 He hath shewed thee, O man, what [is] good; and what doth the LORD require of thee, but to do justly, and to love mercy, and to walk humbly with thy God?

Please do not hesitate to make a reply, or to message me if you have anything that you want to ask privately. Do not be afraid of the truth!


Oh and this is the end of my testimony  :)
May Yahweh bless you.

Anna

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Re: I decided to become a Muslim but then I met Jesus
« Reply #8 on: August 07, 2011, 08:22:25 PM »
Thank you for you testimony Anna.

You are welcome.



Some months after I was born again in 2003, I suddenly realized that my thoughts had somehow gradually become increasingly unregenerate, and my habits too. It happened subtly over a few months without my even realizing it. All at once I realized it was Satan doing what he could to cart off Jesus' goods. I felt desperate. I didn't know what to do. Then it struck me to shout right out loud, "Satan, I can't wait to see Jesus cast you into the lake of fire!", and I felt an immediate release, and have not had difficulty from that moment ever since.

Yes I too had similar experiences. A day or so after I gave my life to Jesus I went to buy something it in a sewing shop. The lady only charged me half the price it should have been, and though I knew in my heart she had made a mistake, I told myself that it must be discounted, and didn't correct her. Even as I walked out I felt guilty, and kept thinking how weird it was as it was a standard item that she would have sold all the time - it was as if she had had some momentary blindness come over her. I was so disgusted with myself as I realised satan had purposefully got me to sin, so I went back the next day and gave her what I knew I owed. She must have thought I was crazy! I also had strange things begin happening, like different strangers coming up to me out of the blue and verbally abusing me, one man came up as I was getting into my car and just started spitting phlegm all over it! I find satan is constantly trying to mess with me, and when I fix one thing he will be right there waiting at the next step I take.

I might try your trick next time.

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Re: I decided to become a Muslim but then I met Jesus
« Reply #9 on: September 09, 2011, 06:02:13 AM »
deadman your post has been moved to the thread you were non-responsive to, the last time you were here, that awaits your reply.
at this link
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